And if your body was the white house,

Pride!

2008-06-30T01:07:29Z

Yay for Pride!!! So much fun.

Yay for meeting new people!

And yay for getting new people's cell numbers.

firework_days @ 2008-06-04T23:58:00

2008-06-05T05:09:20Z

I've graduated grand ol' high school. I thought it would affect me more. Some grand revelation or something. I thought I was at least have some sort or parting sadness. But... none so far. Which is surprising for me because I'm a big baby, I cry at all that emotional stuff. I'm thinking it will come when I move out and into the dorms.

But on the real... haha I just like saying "on the real" because I've been watching Step Up 2 a lot lately. It makes me feel cool. But for real, in real life... I work a lot. I work 6 days this week. The only reason it is only 6 is because I took off one day. I still make time to hang out with my boys. It's always a fun time. Especially fun when Kelsey is with us. No doubt about that. Good friend of mine who I have a MAJOR crush on. It's sad, but true.

This summer I've just been trying to have a much fun and make as much money as I can before I have to go to school. The fun parts working out but on the money front... things could be better. I work a lot but the fun causes the money to disappear. Not cool how that works.

firework_days @ 2008-02-24T16:25:00

2008-02-24T22:26:42Z

so i'm pretty sure little drummer girl is straight.

bummer.

firework_days @ 2008-02-23T12:03:00

2008-02-23T18:26:36Z

My boys(save your breath) played a show last night. They rocked that shit. It was a lot of fun.

The first band to play had a chick drummer. She was awesome.

I must say I was crushin on her just a lil bit. She is cute. She is about 5'4" with wavy dark brown hair. And she's little.. like skinny, but not gross. I hate when girls are too skinny. I have to say her size reminds me of Hayley Williams from Paramore. They are about the same size. AND!..she is completely adorable without even wearing make-up. She has a natural beauty which I find extremely attractive. But she is probably straight because all the girls I am attracted to end up being straight. But the good thing is Save Your Breath(my boys) are having a benefit concert for breast cancer at the end of March and little drummer girl's band is going to play it! Oh, and I call her little drummer girl because I didn't know her name at first, but it's Emily. So hopefully I'll get to see her at the show.

But anyway... is this wierd that I'm ranting about some girl that I just met last night and don't even know???
I'll stop.
PEACE.

firework_days @ 2008-02-22T11:28:00

2008-02-22T17:53:07Z

So what has been going on in my life...???

Well, I have decided not to play basketball in college, I know I will regret in some ways but ultimately I think it will be the best choice. I want my options to be open when I go to school. I want to experiment with career options. I'm kind of leaning toward a career in Radio. But then... I have such a hard time making up my mind because I do want to learn more about photography... and movies. I also want to study a little psychology or something in that area. I suck at making decisions. There are just too many things that I like. I have decided on a school though! I am going to go to Southeast Missouri State. The same school that my sister just graduated from this past December. So at least I know where I'm going. I don't know how I'm going to pay for it though. I really need to start looking at scholarship opportunities.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2008-01-01T23:23:04Z

Sooo... this is how we rock into the next year...

firework_days @ 2007-11-27T01:00:00

2007-11-27T01:00:18Z

Okay.. so last week I posted the entry about my friends. Well, Alan truely is an amazing friend. I have never experienced a friendship like this. I mean I've had great friends/ still have.. but he's a guy and you would never expect this from a guy, especially a straight one. But he is the most thoughtful person I have ever met. He is very intouvh with his feelings. This is a message from myspace that he sent me:

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: tito
Date: Nov 24, 2007 6:00 PM

hey friend.
how was your thanksgiving? you went up to kc didn't you? you're working right now.. that sucks.
I miss you!
Oh, and I came out to Joleigha.

From: alan

Really?
I didn't know you were that close to Joleigha. That's a good thing though, it's one more person who knows, one more friend to support you.
I always thought it must be tough for you, being a person who strives so hard to be an individual. All the while hiding who you really are; pretending to be someone else.
Sometimes I think of how you've been there for me, and I like to think I've been there for you too. Then I remember the time that you were mad because Tommy Parker started rumors about you being gay. It sucked because I could tell that the whole situation was really bothering you. I put alot of thought into what I was going to say and when I finally came up with something that I thought would make you feel better and said, "Don't worry everyone knows it's not true," you started to cry... I should have known right then that you really were gay, and I think a small part of me did; only... at that time I kind of didn't want you to be. I was confused about the whole issue because I would think of all the times you kind of hinted at it and think, "maybe she is..." Then I'd remember how Britney used to always defend you and say you weren't and I'd think, "maybe she's not..." When you came out to me I was like, "Oh My God, that's why she cried!", and ever since I've always felt really bad about my misguided words of comfort. I still feel really bad about it. Even though I know I had good intentions I still feel like a stupid insensitive jerk. I feel like I should have seen it sooner and been coherent enough to be there for you as a real friend, instead of ignoring the signs you had been putting out and hoping you were straight because of a stupid crush...
I guess what I've been getting at here is I'm sorry I was a jerk... It feels good to tell you all of this. I wanted to tell you sooner, and I know that sending a message on myspace is a crummy way to tell someone how you've been feeling. It's just that this was the only way to collect all my thoughts and express my emotions clearly. It's not that I'm bad with words really; it's just that I get choked up on their delivery and end up repeating myself, circling the topic but never actually get my point across.
That you for taking the time to read all this (you have no idea the amount of thought [not to mention proofreading] I put into it). I truely value the friendship we have, and yes I missed you too.

This made me cry... I love the kid. He truely is my best friend.

firework_days @ 2007-11-11T01:48:00

2007-11-11T02:11:43Z

Senior year... is going good. Besides the stress of applying to schools and the gradual coming out, everything is good. My classes are nothing to worry about. I could pass them in my sleep, which is what I'm practically doing now anyway. Basketball season started two weeks ago... we could be better but I think we'll be okay.

I've talked about friends before.. but a lot of the time they don't seem to stay as close as they started. Except for Maddy, she's still here for me. But the friend that has impacted me the most this year is Alan. The most thoughtful and supportive straight guy you'll ever meet.haha I came out to him earlier this year and all it has done is brought us closer. He's my best friend and I love him to death. We're always there for each other.

This school year I have become friends with people I never would have thought to talk to before. I've stepped out of my comfort zone, which wasn't comfortable at all because I knew those people wouldn't accept the real me, and I've met some of the most amazing people ever. I know my friends that I use to hang out with are probably upset that I've changed.. but I'm not sorry if I don't feel like going out and getting drunk every weekend. I'm not sorry if I don't want to live up to the normal teenage high school bullshit. I just want to be me. It amazes me everyday when I hear people talk.. I mean... how small minded can a person get? Really?! How selfish can a person be? How fake...? It baffles me... I guess that's all I can say... it baffles me...

But everything is SUPER DUPER!

firework_days @ 2007-08-13T13:19:00

2007-08-13T19:28:40Z

1. Open up your iTunes/music player of choice.
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Post the first line of the first thirty-five that come up.
4. Have your friends try to guess what the song is

1."You've got magic inside your fingertips, it's leaking out all over my skin."
2."We've been in the run, driving in the sun, looking out for # 1."
3."Just a calendar day b-b-b-bye. It's funny how things can stay the same but drastically change."
4."You know we trap all day, play all night. This is the life of..."
5."So we try and try all of our lives."
6."I'm saying all the things that I know you'll like, making good conversation."
7."Everybody yeah, rock your body, everybody, rock your body..."
8."Forgive sounds good, forget I'm not sure I could. They say time heals everything but I'm still waiting."
9."I've been awake for a while now. You've got me feeling like a child now."
10."Lay back baby and we'll do this right. There's blankets in back we can use. I'll start the car, but we'll stay in park. The cold can kill us before fumes."
11."Because you never know where life in gonna take you and you can't change we're you've been. But today I had the opportunity to choose."
12."Slide you feet create the shock, touch another watch it pop" (one of my favorite opening lines ever. love this song.)
13."Here's a story of a lovely lady, who was bringing up 3 very lovely girls. All of them had hair of gold,like their mother, the youngest one in curls."
14."This is the place where I sit. This is the part where I love you too much. Is this as hard as it gets, because I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough."
15."Baby come here and sit down, lets talk. I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by saying that I love you, but this thing ain't been no walk in the park for us."
16."I am finding out that maybe I was wrong. That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone. Stay with me, this what I need, please."
17."Clock strikes upon the hour and the sun begins to fade. Still enough time to figure out how to chase my blues away."
18."Tell where our time went and if it was time well spent. Just don't let me fall asleep feeling empty again."
19." I just ran into a few someones today. Someones that I never really knew. And I use to think how I had them all so figure out."
20."I gotta regret. I'm feeling this. The air is so cold and low. I'm feeling this. Let me go in her room."
21."It's tearin up my heart when with, but when we are apart I feel it too. And no matter what I do I feel the pain, with or with out you."
22."Toot that thang up mami make it roll. Once you pop, pop lock it for me girl get low."
23."A scrub is guy that thinks he's fly, and is also known as a buster. Always talks about what he wants and just sits on his broke ass. So no..."
24."Yeah, there's a method to my madness if only I could find it I could make you safe. See there's a therapist trying to tell me that you were just a figment of my tainted brain."
25."There you were day after day, 6 feet, 20 feet, 2 feet away."
26."Better than watching Geller bending silver spoons. Better than witnessing new born nebulas in bloom."
27."Won't you come see about me? I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby."
28."I know where you live, yea. And I wanna live there too. I drive by almost everyday, its not even really on my way."
29."I hope this is the last time 'cause I never say no to you."
30."Here I am, laid bare at the end of my rope. I've lost all hope So long. Molly Connelly just broke up with me over the revealing nature of the songs."
31." We ain't got no place to go, let's go to the punk rock show! Darlin take me by the hand, we're gonna see a punk rock band!"
32."I'm in the business of misery, let's take it from the top. She's got a body like an hourglass, it's ticking like a clock. It's a matter of time before we all run out."
33."I wanna make you smile whenever your sad, carry you around when your arthritis is bad."
34."I made it through the wilderness, somehow I made it through. Didn't know how lost I was until I found you."
35."I say the fish don't fry in the kitchen. The beans don't burn on the grill. It took a whole lot of tah-ryin just to get up that hill."

I'M 18 TODAY! Craziness.

2007-08-07T15:36:19Z

Well, it's my birthday. My parents got me a car. Same make, model, and year as the one I wrecked. But it's a 2 door not 4 and it is tanish not green. I drove it home last night and it totally made me miss my old car. It's not bad but... I don't know, it's just not the same. But YAY! for my birthday.

Yep, I had cheesecake not birthday cake. That's how I do it.

My birthday dinner was last night because I get to work tonight!

bored...

2007-08-01T03:28:49Z

001. Real name ? Treena
002. Nickname ? Mainly, Tito but I have plenty others.
003. Are you married ? Nopers.
004. Zodiac sign ? Leo.
005. Male or female ? female.
006. Elementary ? NB.
007. high school ? NB.
010. Hair color ? Brunette.
011. Long or short ? Lort.. lol Best of both worlds.
015. Are you health freak? No.
017. Do you have a crush on someone ? Ummm... yeah, I think I do.
018. Do you like yourself? Most of the time...
019. Piercings ? None.
020. Tattoos ? None yet.
021. Righty or lefty ? righty.

FIRSTS
022. First surgery? Never had one... Thank buddha..
023. First piercing ? I had my ears pierced, until one of them got ripped out and now I have this nice ass tear in my left ear.
024. First best friend ?Ummm... probably Gatlin or Kenda.. not sure which came first. Both from the preschool years/.
025. First word ? I have no idea.
026. First sport you joined ? Basketball, hells yeah.
027. First pet ? Umm... probably Tipper, my dog.. he just died a few months ago. He was so old. He was the best dog ever.
028. First vacation--> No idea.
029. First concert -> haha This is embarassing... But it was NSYNC.. I was in 4th grade, okay? geez.
030. First crush -> Gatlin.

CURRENTLY :
049. Eating ? Nothing.
052. Doing ? Filling out this survey.
053. Listening to ? Say Anything.. the band, not the movie.
055. Waiting for ? Midnight, so I can leave a happy birthday message on facebook for D-Man.
059. Want to get married?? Sure... but it's not really on the top of my to-do list.
060. Careers in mind? ? I have no idea at all... I guess I should start thinking about that since I'm going to graduate after this school year.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :
068. Lips or eyes ? Eyes.
069. Hugs or kisses ? Hugs.
070. Shorter or taller ? Taller.
072. Romantic or spontaneous ? Spontaneous... I'm not looking for romance from the opposite sex.
073. nice stomach or nice arms ? I don't care.
074. Sensitive or loud ? Sensitive.
077. Trouble maker or hesitant ? Who cares.

HAVE YOU EVER :
078. Kissed a stranger ? Ummm... yeah, kinda.
079. Drank bubbles? Yeah, they do have edible bubbles, but they taste like medicine. Gross.
080. Lost glasses/contacts ? Yep.
081. Ran away from home ? Nope.
084. Broken someone's heart ? Yep.
085. Been arrested? ? Nope.
086. Turned someone down ? Yep... and she was pissed. Blamed her life sucking on me... crazy.
087. Cried when someone died ? Oh yeah. I was really close to my great grandma and she just died last year. That was hard. And a friend's sister died last year.. also a friend's father... that was a bad year.
088. Liked a friend ? haha Of course.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself ? Sometimes.
090. Miracles ? Sure.
091. Love at first sight ? Hmmm... undecided.
092. Heaven ? I don't know...
093. Santa clause ? Hells yeah!
094. Sex ? Do I believe in sex??... what exactly am I supposed to say to that?? Sure, I love sex.lol
096. Angels ? Sure.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes.
098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? NO!!
099. Do you believe in God?: I'm still undecided in that area.
100. Post as 100 Truths.

firework_days @ 2007-07-22T21:48:00

2007-07-23T02:58:13Z

So I've been crying for the past 4 hours... want to know why?

I don't care, I'm gonna tell you.

I totaled my car tonight. I was going to get pizza with my friends, Steph and Jordan. Jordan was in the passengers seat, Steph in the backseat behind her, and I was driving. So what I remember is a black car a good distant in front of us stopping so the car in front of it could turn. The black car didn't have on its blinker so I figured since the car had already turned it would go ahead and go. During this I have my foot on the break the whole time, gradually slowing down. But once I saw the front car turn I let off of the brake a little figuring the black car would pick up speed.. but I guess that didn't happen.. I can't really remember between then and the airbag hitting my face. I don't remember where I was looking before the airbag hit me... I can't remember what I said after it hit me... I just remember coughing and feeling my arm burning... remember getting out of the car with my 2 friends. I walked around for a little trying to cry, trying to make tears but nothing would come. Someone called 911.. each of us called our parents... talked to firefighter.. EMT.. police.. cried from the moment my parents got there to now.I don't know how I'm going to pay for a new car or how I'm going to pay off the ticket because it was my fault and I feel absolutely horrible about it. But the good thing is no one was seriously hurt, just bruises and burns from the airbags.

William Jewel Basketball Camp: Part 1

2006-06-29T19:50:50Z

So... The past 5 days I have been at a individual basketball camp. I went last year but didn't stay on campus. So this year I roomed with my friend Lilly who I met at camp last year. It was so much fun.

I ended up winning the 1 on 1 tourney, the slam dunk contest, and my 3 0n 3 team won the tourney. My 5 on 5 team got 3rd place. I broke the free throw contest record which was 16 out of 20 and I made 18. I also won camper of the week, which I won last year too. That means that out of 130 campers the coaches and counselors picked me. So that's pretty cool. It probably helped that I made friends with all the coaches and counselors. My group was the Owls, we were the oldest group at the camp, it's grades 4th-12th. Our counselor was Amber Parker, she plays for William Jewel, the college the camp was at. She was really cool. One night I was in her room talking to her until midnight even though she's suppose to make us go to bed at 11. Then there was our group coach, Coach Dully (its said dooly) he was pretty cool but didn't talk all that much. Okay, then Lindsey, my 5 on 5 coach. She is out of college now but she still helps with camps. She cussed every other word, it was hilarious. Lilly was on my 5 on 5 team and Lindsey loved us. Last night at about 11:40 Lindsey comes in to our room to get her Gatorade that she was keeping in our cooler. She laughs and goes, "I'm going to drink all of these... with vodka in them." The last part she whispered. Then she leaves the room.lol It was hilarious. Umm... Oh, my "dunking coach" Katie Fowler, she plays ball for Truman State. She can be scary as hell or the funniest person ever. I think she is bipolar. But she taught me some pretty kick ass dunks for the contest. The dunk contest was on like a 7 foot goal. Who else?... Oh Amber Springfield, she was my counsler last year, she was there again. Faith, I don't remember who she played for but she was the funniest person ever. She was reffing a game and someone pushed a girl with their body and to demostrate to the girl what she did wrong Faith did like a humping motion.lol So I yelled across the court and had her do the demostration agian for me. Then this counselor, Hillary, also a college ball player. At first Lilly and I thought she hated us but she ended up being pretty cool. I think she liked me more than Lilly though because I was nicer to her. Jeez this is a lot. But I still have a lot to talk about. Maybe I'll do part two of William Jewel camp later. Yeah so, if you read all this.. um... then you're extremely bored and have nothing to do.

Ranting: Over. For now.

firework_days @ 2006-06-22T02:39:00

2006-06-22T07:47:14Z

I have a new obsession. It is Tina Majorino. Yes, it's Deb from Napoleon Dynamite. Also plays Cindy in Veronica Mars. And now I'm just realizing it was her in Waterworld and Andre, both movies I use to watch all the time but haven't seen in forever. But most recently I saw her play Heather in the show Big Love. I just watched the entire first season tonight. I also just found out she is the lead singer of the band The AM Project, AMP. They are really good too. So yeah, now that I'm done ranting about my obsession... goodnight... or good morning. However you want to look at it.

firework_days @ 2006-06-20T10:28:00

2006-06-20T15:39:59Z

Appearance

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had glasses.
[x] I wear contacts
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life

[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[x] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.

School/Work

[x] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.
[ ] I've skipped school.

Embarrasment

[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public (it happened in my second class of the day and I wore them with a huge rip in the butt for the rest of the day.)

Health

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling

[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences

[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been skiing.
[ ] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[x] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships

[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality

[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime

[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[ ] I've shoplifted

Drugs/Alcohol

[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I seem to be sad a lot.
[ ] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.

Death and Suicide

[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on E-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Political/Social Attitudes

[ ] In general, I don't like people.
[x] I'm a feminist.
[x] I'm outgoing.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I'm Democratic.
[ ] I'm Republican.
[ ] I'm liberal.
[ ] I'm religious.
[ ] My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it."

Random

[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[x] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name..
[ ] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, green, pink, orange red or blue.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] My answers are totally honest

firework_days @ 2006-06-13T12:11:00

2006-06-13T17:11:03Z

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Religious	\|\|	10%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|	16%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	44%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%

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firework_days @ 2006-06-13T11:37:00

2006-06-13T16:54:54Z

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.

Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.

You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!

People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

You Are Shadowcat

You're like a little sister to some, but others see you as a sex kitten.
You are well trained in martial arts, a bit of a computer geek, and can totally kick butt.

Powers: the ability to "phase" through walls and other physical objects

Which of the X-Men Are You?

firework_days @ 2006-06-13T11:30:00

2006-06-13T16:29:39Z

You Are Lightning

Beautiful yet dangerous
People will stop and watch you when you appear
Even though you're capable of random violence

You are best known for: your power

Your dominant state: performing

What Type of Weather Are You?

firework_days @ 2006-06-08T15:44:00

2006-06-08T20:49:20Z

Sooo.... what have I been up to??

I've pretty much just been doing basketball and working. Tuesday we had the athletic banquet for this past year's sports. For basketball awards I got leader in scoring and leader in assists. So that was cool. In track I don't think Coach Center could find an actual award for me so she just gave me the "wildcat award". She said I was her favorite even if I did complain about hating track. I love my buddy Mrs. Center.

Hmmm... got basketball team camp that starts tomorrow at CMSU. That should be fun.

firework_days @ 2006-05-26T14:27:00

2006-05-26T19:31:59Z

Got my hair cut yesterday. Wanted to get about 4 or 5 inches cut off. When I got there I decided on 6 inches. Then she cut off the six inches and I was like "ummmm maybe a little more so," I probably got about 8 or 9 inches cut off from the length. Then I got bangs and layers. I love it. I think I'm going to keep my hair short for a while. I hated having long hair.

spaz.

2006-05-19T03:10:14Z

Sara, Jenny, and I singing Wannabe by Spice Girls in Algebra.

Me: I DON'T KNOW WHAT A ZIGAZIG AH IS BUT I WANT ONE!!

firework_days @ 2006-05-18T13:57:00

2006-05-18T19:06:47Z

Would you rather

[ ] Ask someone out.
[x] Be asked out.

[x] Have a sunny day.
[ ] Have a rainy day.

[x] Have a computer.
[ ] Have a cell phone.

[ ] Be poor & live till you're 100.
[x] Be rich & live till you're 30.

[x] Be blind.
[ ] Be deaf.

[x] Have it be Winter all year round.
[ ] Have it be Summer all year round.

[ ] Be beautiful.
[x] Be loved.

[ ] Take a bath.
[x] Take a shower.

[x] be born poor and die rich.
[ ] be born rich and die poor.

[ ] Never have to go to school.
[x] Never have to go to the doctor|dentist.

[ ] Never feel physical pain.
[x] never feel emotional pain.

[x] Wear glasses|contacts.
[ ] Wear braces.

What Have You Done

[x] Slept all night in a bed with a person of the opposite sex .
[x] Slept all night in a bed with a person of the same sex.
[x] Slept for more than 12 hours.
[ ]Missed a week of school or more.
[ ] Put lip gloss on more than 5 times in an hour.
[ ] Created a MySpace survey.
[ ] Eaten a worm.
[x] Jumped on a trampoline.
[ ] Ridden a unicycle.
[x] Done something special for someone else.
[ ] Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant
[ ] Paid more than $50 for food at a fast food restaurant.
[ ] Got caught for cheating.
[ ] Talked on the phone while in the shower. (bath)
[ ] Brushed your teeth while on the phone.
[ ] Worked in fast food place.
[x]Randomly called people out of a phone book.
[x] Been on a Yacht.
[ ] Put bananas in your cheerios.
[x] Lied to a friend to make them feel better.
[x] Dated someone more than 1 year older than you.
[x] Eaten frosting out of the original container.
[x] Had a dream about a MySpace friend.
[x] Fallen in public.
[x] Had your pants rip.
[ ] Recently had a PB&J sandwich.
[ ] Met your principal's parents.
[ ] Killed an animal.
[ ] Been prescribed to 3 or more medications by a doctor.
[ ] Wished you were an only child.
[ ] Used your friends razor with out them knowing.
[x] Been ashamed of a decision you made.
[x] Worked for a family member.
[x] Been told you were too young for something.
[ ] Kissed a friend, then their best friend.
[x] Been to a concert.
[x] Gotten away with a lie to your parents.
[ ] Been dumped the night of a dance and left with out a date.
[x] Been cheated on.
[ ] Gone out with a person one of your parents set you up with.
[x] Ridden on a shopping cart.
[x] Danced in a grocery store.
[ ] Went into a mini mart in socks.
[x] Worn a tiara.
[ ] Been in a play.
[ ] Gone to church/temple more than 2 times in a week.
[x] Copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[ ] Made a movie.
[x] Dressed gothic.
[x] Worn 5 or more layers of clothing.
[x] Been to California.
[ ] Been on a house boat.
[x] Swam in clear blue water.
[x] Sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] Ran across 6 lanes of traffic.
[x] Made fish lips.
[ ] Hit on a waitress.
[x] Taken pictures with a stranger.
[ ] Been to Busch Gardens.
[x] Stayed in a hotel room with 2 other school mates.
[x] Made a public speech.
[ ] Choreographed a dance.
[x] Felt used.
[x] Made a smoothie or milkshake.
[x] Had fun at work.
[x] Watched Desperate Housewives.
[xxxx] Watched a movie so often you could quote every word.
[x] Listened to an NSYNC or Backstreet Boys CD.
[x] Kept something from a past relationship.
[x] Given someone else flowers.
[x] Taken a foreign language.
[x] Gotten to school at 6:15 in the morning.

Your Confessions

[ ] I am really ticklish.
[x] I've collected comic books.
[ ] I read and watch the news.
[x] I love Disney movies.
[x] I don't like bugs.
[ ] I have/had the letter x in my screen name.
[ ] I cook well.
[x] I have worn pajamas to class.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart .
[ ] I am guilty of TYPiNG LiKE THiS.
[x] I'm self conscious.
[x] I love to laugh.
[x] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] Gotten lost in the city.
[ ] Gone out in public in your underwear.
[ ] Made out at school.
[ ] Been skydiving
[ ] Been bungee jumping.
[x] Biten someone.
[ ] Egged a house|car.
[ ] Ding dong ditched someone.
[ ] Crashed into a car.
[ ] Been fired.
[ ] Been skinny dipping.

Have you ever

[ ] Stolen a sign.
[x] Danced in the rain.
[x] Seen a star.
[ ] Proposed to anyone.
[ ] Gotten stitches.
[ ] Eaten Sushi.
[x] Gotten the chicken pox.
[x] Ridden in a taxi.
[ ] Went on a cruise ship.
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day.
[ ] Been on a plane by yourself.
[ ] Had surgery.
[x] Seen a movie more than 3 times.
[x] Been on stage.
[ ] Gotten a black eye.
[x] Memorized all the dialogue in a movie.
[x]watched an entire baseball game on tv.

In 2006 You

[x] Broke a promise.
[x] Made a new friend.
[x] had a big crush on someone
[x] Done something you swore never to do.
[x] Lied to my mom and dad.
[ ] Stole.
[x] Disappointed someone close.
[x] Hidden a secret.
[x] pretended to be happy
[ ] Got arrested.
[ ] Kissed in the rain.
[ ] Slept under the stars
[ ] Kept your new years resolution.
[ ] Forgot your new years resolution.
[ ] Met someone who changed your life.
[ ] Met one of your idols.
[x] Changed your outlook on life.
[x] Sat home all day doing nothing.
[ ] Pretended to be sick.
[ ] Left the country.
[ ] Almost died.
[ ] Given up something important to you.
[ ] Lost something expensive.
[x] Learned something new about yourself.
[x] Tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it.
[x] Made a change in your life.
[x] Made a total fool of yourself.
[x] Met great people.

firework_days @ 2006-05-03T19:18:00

2006-05-04T00:21:27Z

<td align="center"> Treena --
[noun]:

A person with a sixth sense for detecting the presence of goblins

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

firework_days @ 2006-05-01T17:25:00

2006-05-01T22:27:49Z

[ ] I'm afraid of silence.
[ ] I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I'm afraid of the dark.
[x] I can't sleep in a room if the door is open
[ ] I can't sleep in a room if the door is closed
[>] I am homosexual.
[x] I believe in true love.
[ ] I've ran away from home
[ ] I listen to political music
[ ] I collect comic books
[ ] I shut others out when I'm sad.
[ ] I've stayed out all night.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[ ] I watch the news
[x] I like Disney movies.
[ ] I am a sucker for green eyes.
[ ] I am a sucker for brown eyes.
[x] I am a sucker for blue eyes
[ ] I dont kill bugs
[x] I curse.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I bake well.
[x]I have worn pajamas to class.
[x] I want a better job
[x] Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.
[x] I love Dr. Phil.
[ ] I like multiple people
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self-conscious.
[x] I love to laugh.
[ ] I have tried alcohol.
[ ] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.
[ ] I have tried a cigarette.
[ ] I have smoked a pack in one day.
[ ] I loved Lord of the Flies.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I have a lot of scars.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I like chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[ ]I am not comfortable with being me.
[x] I play computer games when I'm bored.
[x]Gotten lost in the city.
[ ]Thought of suicide before.
[x] Seen a shooting star.
[ ] Had a menage a trois.
[x] Gone out in public in my pajamas
[x] Hugged a stranger.
[ ] Been in a fist fight.
[x] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] Made out in an elevator.
[ ] Swore at Liberace.
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose
[ ] Been skydiving.
[ ] Been bungee jumping.
[ ]Gotten stitches.
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.
[x] Gotten the chicken pox.
[ ] Crashed into a car
[ ] been to Japan.
[x] Ridden in a taxi.
[ ] Shoplifted.
[ ] Been fired
[x] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] Stole something from your job.
[ ] Gone on a blind date.
[x] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans
[ ] Been to Europe.
[ ] Slept with a co-worker, and/or employee.
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[x] Saw someone/something dying.
[ ] have a list of people you want to kill.
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] Thrown up in a bar.
[x] Eaten sushi.
[x] Cried in public.
[ ] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.
[x] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have.
[x] Thought of someone a lot lately.
[ ] Hate the world.
[x] Love someone who doesnt realize it
[ ] scared of whales.

My situation

2006-04-24T22:09:35Z

Alright so my best friend, Brittney. She knows I'm a lesbian and knows that I'm attracted to her. She's cool with it because she likes girls too but has a boyfriend. She's attracted to me too. Well Friday we hung out and I spent the night. We ended up kissing that night. Well Saturday I told her I didn't want to do the senior march with her at prom, she invited me and the seniors walk in and they anounce their date that's the senior march. Well I told her I didn't want to do it with her anymore because lately people have been calling us dykes and shit like that and I just wanted to have fun at prom, didn't want any of that shit to happen. Well she got upset about that and is still upset. Well today after lunch she told me that she didn't want to hang out with me after prom. She just wanted to hang out with other seniors. That upset. A lot. She was the one who invited me to prom, I never asked. If she didn't really want me to go I could have got a different date instead of going through all this shit. I really really like Brittney, I am so fucking attracted to her but now all this happens and I just feel unloved and unwanted. I hate it. I hate being second best in everything. And now I don't know what to do because I'm so fucked up. SO if anyone has any advice I would really appreciate it. Thanks for reading this long rant, if you did.